Revisiting history

I haven’t written about my health or shared many videos from my cancer journey since the beginning of this year. To be honest, I’ve been avoiding it. With everything that’s happening in our world today – our pandemic, our tyrannical leader, our dismantling of unsustainable societal structures, our acknowledgement of the massive trauma and abuse […]

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Me and my ego

I’ve been thinking a lot about why people decide to have children; why I decided to have children. I’d like to think that I had the best of intentions when my husband and I started our journey to become parents. We wanted to raise a child to be an active contributor to society, to do […]

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Reconciling with ‘Why’

“WHY ME?” A question I used to ask myself daily. In the depths of depression, I couldn’t come up with an answer that made any sense to me. Nobody else could either. I had died but I also hadn’t. I almost lost everything but then didn’t. I witnessed several people take their last breaths in […]

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Beyond Cancer

On certain days, particularly when it’s overcast, rainy, cold, I find myself feeling vulnerable and in fragments. Like a shattered clay pot. For a long time I felt broken. I felt betrayed by my body and incapable of performing any mundane daily tasks, let alone creating life. My first cancer diagnosis arrived years ago, while […]

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You are not alone

Hello friends, my name is Heidi and whether or not you feel it I am holding your hand. I’m holding your hand through depression, through motherhood, through cancer – whatever you’re dealing with, I see your burden and wish to help you carry them. Why? Because I get it. I get that that depression can […]

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