Hate crimes

March 17, 2021.Reading time 5 minutes.

We live in confusing times. Our current events are riddled with controversy and contradiction. It’s both unsurprising and heartbreaking that hate crimes towards Asian Americans are on the rise while education and awareness for racial injustice grows. Another opportunity to be outraged about our fractured culture. Growing up in Flatbush, Brooklyn, a hotbed for the […]

Revisiting history

July 29, 2020.Reading time 10 minutes.

I haven’t written about my health or shared many videos from my cancer journey since the beginning of this year. To be honest, I’ve been avoiding it. With everything that’s happening in our world today – our pandemic, our tyrannical leader, our dismantling of unsustainable societal structures, our acknowledgement of the massive trauma and abuse […]

Me and my ego

January 12, 2020.Reading time 7 minutes.

I’ve been thinking a lot about why people decide to have children; why I decided to have children. I’d like to think that I had the best intentions when my husband and I started our journey to become parents. We wanted to raise a child to be an active contributor to society, to do good […]

Reconciling with ‘Why’

September 4, 2019.Reading time 11 minutes.

“WHY ME?” A question I used to ask myself daily. In the depths of depression, I couldn’t come up with an answer that made any sense to me. Nobody else could either. I had died but I also hadn’t. I almost lost everything but then didn’t. I witnessed several people take their last breaths in […]

Beyond Cancer

June 13, 2019.Reading time 10 minutes.

On certain days, particularly when it’s overcast, rainy, cold, I find myself feeling vulnerable and in fragments. Like a shattered clay pot. For a long time I felt broken. I felt betrayed by my body and incapable of performing any mundane daily tasks, let alone creating life. My first cancer diagnosis arrived years ago, while […]

You are not alone

March 26, 2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

Hello friends, my name is Heidi and whether or not you feel it I am holding your hand. I’m holding your hand through depression, through motherhood, through cancer – whatever you’re dealing with, I see your burden and wish to help you carry them. Why? Because I get it. I get that that depression can […]