MRI blues & Karaoke tunes (video)

Three weeks before my son was born I learned that the tumor lodged in my brain was growing. Here’s a little vignette of how that went and what I did to cheer myself up. It’s natural to feel disempowered when bad news comes our way. While enmeshed in hardship we cannot see that we have […]

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Me and my ego

I’ve been thinking a lot about why people decide to have children; why I decided to have children. I’d like to think that I had the best of intentions when my husband and I started our journey to become parents. We wanted to raise a child to be an active contributor to society, to do […]

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Moments of Joy & Choosing not Fear (video)

In this video, I talk about some of the coping strategies I used to get through each day after learning the cancer had returned. Most of these are strategies I’ve gained from years of therapy to manage depression and anxiety. I was 24-years old when I first sought out counseling. My therapist shared the same […]

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Beyond Cancer

On certain days, particularly when it’s overcast, rainy, cold, I find myself feeling vulnerable and in fragments. Like a shattered clay pot. For a long time I felt broken. I felt betrayed by my body and incapable of performing any mundane daily tasks, let alone creating life. My first cancer diagnosis arrived years ago, while […]

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You are not alone

Hello friends, my name is Heidi and whether or not you feel it I am holding your hand. I’m holding your hand through depression, through motherhood, through cancer – whatever you’re dealing with, I see your burden and wish to help you carry them. Why? Because I get it. I get that that depression can […]

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