A cathartic release as I revisit past trauma and express the tremendous love, gratitude and guilt I feel towards my husband.

I think most people can feel a lot of different things at the same time. It wasn’t an easy decision to post this video but I remain committed to sharing an honest depiction of my journey as an expecting/new mom managing a cancer diagnosis.

Sometimes I really need a good cry to hold space to feel my feelings… and I was going through LOTS of them at the time: anger, despair, fatigue, regret, guilt, remorse. Plus, I’m 31-weeks pregnant in this video so my hormones were amplifying those feelings even more. Not all days are good days and I’m learning to be less judgmental and afraid to face myself on the hard ones.